When I'm emo...
I shy away from the crowd
I ignore messages for a few hours
I dont talk at all
I dont go to social gatherings

Because...
I dont want to give off negative vibe to others.
I dont want others to feel unhappy just cos of me.
I dont want to be a burden to others.

So when I'm emo...
Dont disturb me.
Let me emo for a while.
And after that few hours, I'll be alright. I'll be happy. I'll socialize. :)

You want to know the reason why I'm emo this few days? You really wanna know??
It's PMS.

Thanks for the meiji milk! :D
Made my day.

P/S: Hate super guniang girls, act gentle act weak. BLEH.

I will not let myself drown in self-pity and anger. (:

6C is always still there. (:
I love that group.
Unconditional friendship ^_^
Was tired physically, but didnt regret going to the mini study group in the end.
I wanna join Pindong's reading club place. $12 / year and can study there from 9am to 6pm at Khatib.
WOOHOOOOOOOO.

I miss everyone. I dont mind Subway, got nice people plus extra $$$ to shop and save. But I want my previous life back.
I miss night study sessions and talks after that with 6C.
I miss waiting for Fatin at bus stop and vice versa, being super early for classes.
I miss Ngee ann shuttle bus.

It's only when I've lost my previous life then I know how much it means to me.
I can fight the depression and anxiety. I want to be a fighter when I get back to school. (:

And thanks for caring darling (:
Your message sent me to tears ):
I dont want to be dependant on you though.

Goodnight lovelies.

SEXAYE(:

Life = Routine.
Work work work everyday.

Yesterday at work I was the only girl =.=
Naim's at work too yup.
He said "Innie Minnie Mo Lover" is by Sean Kingston, but I insisted it was by "Justin Bieber"
Turned out I was right. Oh yayyyyyy :D

Got quite a number of retarded customers
EXAMPLE
Me: What sauce do you want sir?
Customer: Sauce
Me: Yes, but what sauce do you want?
Customer: (Quizzical and slightly irritated look) Sauce?
Me: I know, but what sauce?
Customer: The white one (Referring to mayo)

=.=

Hello wello!
Just a quick update.

Kennedy was nice to download audition for me. 15 whole hours. WOOOHOOO yeahhhh.
Just started playing last night at midnight. Kena trashed by people siahhh. But, I still love it. And I'll get better.
Addictive and stimulating much ;)
And at the end of the day, my boyfriend can beat you! So it doesnt matter if i'm bimbo and noob at the game. ;)
LALALALA.
I'm just kidding. :D

Work later at 3.15pm. Meeting customer 2.45pm. Name's Lyping.

Byebye chocolates.

Friends
I just counted how many friends I have.
I got 8 friends in my life, whom love me.
Friends = Good friends.
I dont have many friends in my life cos I'm not those popular kind, but what I do have are minute yet friends who genuinely care. And inside my heart, I know. :)
Some are more distant, some are closer.
But yet, I'm thankful that I have them in my life.

Security
I get jealous, angry, and upset easily.
But those feelings are secondary - Insecurity is the greatest of all.
I guess it's the answer of my past arrogance, my aloofness at times, my shyness towards people, my frequent inability to socialize to the best of my ability cos of fear of what other people think
What other people think, is that really so important?
So what if I make a fool of myself at the end of the day? Does that really matter?

I have been trying to work on this.
Building my self esteem and loving myself more.
Telling myself everything is going to be fine, and things wont be out of control.
Realizing which thoughts are rational and irrational, and taking those persimmistic and hurting thoughts lightly.
That's what I'm trying to do.

After my clinical depression in sec 3 and being outcasted and left out in sec 2, I realised that I want so much things out of this life, more than anyone can ever imagine.

I want to become a leader. I want to inspire others. I want to love the broken hearted. Most of all, I want to become successful in my career. I want to seek love.
I just want to make what I've gone through, worth it.

But meanwhile before I become what I aim for, I want to learn to be strong and secure inside first.

Has anyone told them that they were loved? Cherished?
Dont they deserve a second chance?

Just some thoughts that I think about ^^

I love you.

HANNAH IS SO SO SICK ):
HAIS.
Dont know if I should go work tommorow.

And and, I dreamt a HORRIBLE nightmare ):
It still lingers on up till now.
I cant really rmber what the quarrel btw me and Kennedy in the dream was about, but it was really fierce and heartbreaking. )':
I'm irrationally sad.
CHEER UP HANNAH, IT'S JUST A DREAM ALRIGHT ;')

Yesterday ate with Kennedy's sisters and all.
His second sister was hella funny :DDDDD
Laughed like mad. It's been long since I've laughed like that.

No mood to blog already,
will leave you guys with my life path number personality test ^^
Weebly doesnt ALLOW me to link: http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-lifepath.html

My Calculations(24th October 1992):  2 + 4 + 1 + 0 + 1 + 9 + 9 + 2 = 28, 2 + 8 = 10, 1 + 0 = 1

Result: Life Path 1

The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. Many of our military generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path 1. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are very good at getting the ball rolling; initiating new projects is your forte. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. You have a tendency to do this, even if, at times, it is not appropriate for you to do so.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You tire of routine and highly detailed tasks rather quickly.

You are ambitious and assertive in promoting yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you can be self-centered and demand to have your way in many circumstances. That said, for the most part, you are considered very good company, friendly, good-natured, and a wonderful conversationalist. People like you and are drawn to you. It is a good thing they are, because you are very sensitive to disapproval and you don't handle it very well.

There are several ways that the negative side of the 1 can show up. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Unfortunately, sometimes you have to follow for a while before you are allowed to lead and this can be a difficult time. When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent, particularly in the early years. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This might be defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Avoid being too bossy and demanding.

For me, it's quite true.
Encourage you all to take it ^^

Goodbye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNEDY! :)
*Bear Hug and Throws Confetti*

Meeting some customers and going to Kennedy's housie to celebrate tommorow.
Too tired today, gonna prepare his gift tommorow.
Gift hint: YUMYUM
Heeheee. :D

KENNEDY ^3^

I wanna lose weight. I hate fat feelings.

Life is tiring and I'm hungry D:

 Kennedy is in an art course in NYP.
So yup, yesterday we were talking, and then here was how one of our topics went:

Hannah: You know I can draw very well in primary school....
Kennedy: ya....
Hannah: I can trace very well
Kennedy: LOL!

It's alright people :)
I dont mind not having the artistic talent.

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I dont need any compliments or criticism at work.
Compliments= Head will swell and be very proud
Criticism(unconstructive)= Will feel very demoralized.
I just want to do my work well, as it is.

For work, it has so far been okay I guess.

I'm getting better at the things that I do! :D And I'm hairpeeeeee.
I'm loving Subway.

I ♥ SARA. She's smiley and awesome, and teaches me things without giving me the controlling feeling. I LOVE YOU SARA.
I ♥ Li Thong. But too bad she's gone.Please come back Li thong! We make a great team in sauce and veggies >:'(
I ♥ Natalie. She is even more blur than me, but I sort of respect her since she is a graduate from NYP accounting.
I ♥ Irene. She is super serious to the extent of being cold, but when it comes to more relax times she cracks jokes. Hah.
I like Jayce. He is submissive(yar, I am domineering, so what), and he never gets angry. :B Not to mention super helpful too. He is 28 years old indian boy, and he says that he works at subway to spend money on Liverpool stuff. -.- :D Heh.
I like Hua Seng. He treats everyone to ice cream once, and he is funny and smiley... and when people ask him whether he has eaten, he says something like "What? Cannot ah?"
I like Naim. 26 year old malay. He looks gangster but he is a great help and I mentor him and he appreciates it.

My 7 favourite colleagues, out of 20.

Goodiebye everyone (: