Yesterday was the last day of 2010. :) Went to dance with Ernie, John (Ernie's Friend), and Eeting at Recognize Studios. The dance we danced was G-dragon - Knockout. It was so-so, but we four had fellowship afterwards and it was great.Met Nerdy then we went to Khatib and went to my house, then went out to see the fireworks. Met 6C by coincidence. The fireworks lasted for around 5 minutes, and everyone was just "OOOHHHH AHHH". Hahaha. It was brilliant, and I really appreciate my Nee Soon community.
And later Imma go work. Abit apprehensive since I dont really know what I'm getting myself into by working and studying at the same time. I've done some prior research to do that, some can cope, some cant. Nerdy says its hard. But the solution for me is to know when to pull out, when to reduce from twice a week to only once a week, or to pull out completely and focus 100% on studies. But then again, who knows it might be successful and I might learn more about effective time management :) So I guess it's not to worry, and have fun ! Credits for the fireworks video: s8000523g on Youtube
2007: Recovery Year 2008: Perserverance Year 2009: Friendship Year 2010: Relationship, Work fulfillment, Stronger Identity, Personal Growth Year 2011: ???
Hope 2011 will be good.
Goal: Lower expectations of myself and others and prioritize boyfriend , school & work, social life effectively :D
Today watched Eat.Pray.Love again on the computer and it gave me the same feeling I watched it for the first time. :) So tempted to ate spaghetti after watching it in the movie so I decided to eat it for dinner. Now I'm addicted to spaghetti !
Good Ol' Classic Tomato Spaghetti. And the part where she made breakfast for herself and chewed on asparagus which was drizzled with honey, and it made me hungry too.
So I decided to buy asparagus from cold storage. Thai asparagus to be exact. When I boiled it, it seriously smelled like rotten peanuts and it was so limp (it's meant to be crunchy, according to google) that I vomited immediately :(
Hearty meal :D
I am employed at Farrer Park Subway !!! :) <3 Working Friday 3-11, and Sunday 7.45-4. It's really so flexible and they can let you choose your schedules. It's a different subway to the one that I was working previously, but it's under the same franchise boss.
I'm really happy cos I want the money $$$$ to come ! The next obstacle would be struggling to cope boyfriend, work, school, social life(If I have any), and maybe a bit of family.
They're in constant search for employees, so let me know if you are keen to work ! :)
I want to work back in Subway.
Cos of the fact that: I want a new mattress I want to buy stuff from gmarket I want to expand my post-it collection I want to buy nice stationery, e.g: cute ink scented pens and popcorn pens, etc I want to save the rest for uni and future use =D
Other reasons: I want to slim down I need a CCA so I'm treating work like one I want to advance (hopefully) to become supervisor in the near future? hahas. Or if not supervisor just simply more pay
Feeling very positive today of my growth emotionally and the fact that I'm more stable. Had a breakthrough in my thinking of my 1) Home chaotic situation, 2) School
Happy that I got you, Nerdy.
Realisation today: Reality-strucked
Today after being shielded from the hell of a social world, I realised that I'm finally back to the battlefield. The battlefield where the social world throws at you people who are more beautiful, more popular, more smarter, more entrepreneur ability and asks you to DEAL WITH IT.
To fight this and win the battlefield, you must have a sense of individuality, and have a strong sense of confidence and in a certain way, stubbornness.
If not the answer is simple, you lose - both your sense of hope and belonging.
The good news is that, you get to seek refuge, and that is if you choose to. You can choose to not fight it temporarily, and run away from it and hide. So that you can come back stronger.
Thank you for protecting me from all harm and pain :)
Today waking up feeling much better.
Ate nasi lemak. Lazy to study. Posted in a few job application forms, such as Temporary Esplanade Librarian, Directing people to airport from the cruise(Not sure what the name is), Packer, Cashier, Etc.
Somehow I find odd jobs more fufilling than homework =)
Wish that Nerdy can accompany me to seek jobs and do them, but he doesnt agree with this idea. :/ How nice if I can get a chance to work with him.
Because to survive, is to put on a mask. To mask all the hurt away, is to smile it away.
I have difficulty in showing people who I truly am, in trusting people, even good friends. The good thing is, that I'm not alone. I can cry on someone's shoulders, or rather some people's shoulders since there are more than one person.
Like Ma since she may not understand me, but she's here for me and genuine. Like Nerdy since he say he'll be there for me always, and through his eyes I know he means it.
P/S to readers: I'm sorry for all the emo posts, if you are affected easily, guess you shouldnt be reading this :)
My house is really noisy, it's a mad house. I want to get out of here, I really had enough ):
I need someone to protect me, from all my fears. Because I'm really one depressed person right now.
Let me stay.
Alright so I dont own this picture, cos it was taken by his classmate. But I definitely own this guy :) Cute boy.
I seriously hate common test, I cant concentrate. Really. I feel so guilty, at the same time not. I dont know what I'm doing. T_T
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