Working morning shift these two days.
Ate prawn dumplings and mum didnt cook well enough so I kena diarrhea.
Did cashiering for 5 hours until kena sorethroat and Hua Seng said I broke record.
Damn depressed when one primary school customer call me "Aunty". I was like. FKKKKKKK. Lol.
Have been quarreling with Kennedy alot recently. It's like our relationship cant go to what it was before. We didnt cheat on each other throughout, but our relationship is just souring.
Esp yesterday - it was terrible. It's the 3rd time I broke up with him, and prolly going to be the last. This r/s has brought out both the best and the worst of me. Who knew that I was such a loving and thoughtful girlfriend, even attempting to cook stuff and clean up. Who also knew that I was so possessive and hot tempered. Sigh.
3rd April - 31st July 2010.
Kennedy , thank you for making memories with me while it lasted :)
On the other hand, I dont like the loneliness of singlehood. Loneliness is terrible. ):
Prolly when I dont have depression or when emotionally stable then recommit to another relationship ba.....
Anticipating school.
I am someone who loves changes. And when I mean changes, I mean positive ones.
I wish to be a caterpillar. Happy and green. And most importantly by being one, I would be able to shed it's old skin and start afresh again. It can become a butterfly filled with freedom and happiness too.
Today I went back to school just for the sake of fun and to visit my old friends and I realised that I have grown alot. Other than horizontally wise, I have become more mature INSIDE. And I'm happy that I have became as such.
I mean the anxiety is still there, but with subjects you love and with friends beside you (as well as sweets to dispel sleepiness), school will be O.K.
I'm now assured that I will be able to survive =)
I used to read love stories to understand how it feels like to be ina relationship,
But now I dont do that. Instead I am able to relate love songs more:)
Always be my Baby - Mariah Carey / David Cook
(do do do dop)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
(do do doop dum)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
(repeat)
we were as one baby
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart baby
our love will never die,no!
you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
(do do doop)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
(do do doop dum)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
i know that you'll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you'll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of time
you'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)
and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)
(do do doop)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
(do do doop dum)
(do do doop do doop da dum)
you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be
我真的恨我的心病 D：
Hating my illness it's okay for me, but I dont want to end up hating myself in the end.
Watched Sorcerer's Apprentice today with Nerdy. Shittily LOUD at the cinema man. Made me jump 4 times. >_< Never put heart attack disclaimer.
Ate Japanese food for two meals today.
Mum paying via cheque for my iPod Touch, gonna pay her afterwards. Getting it soon.
Nerdy wore a lovely blue shirt today and look so so handsome.
He talked a lot. Chatty boy :P
RANDOM: I just love to rebel and no one's ever gonna stop me.
Teenage angst. Heeheee. :)
你去了哪里？
我很后悔我今天如此对你。
Regret and saying a Sorry is underrated.
I dont know what to do know, at a loss.
You really have no right to get angry.
You dont understand how hard I work. I work 6 days a week, sometimes close to 12 hours per day. That's the life of F&B person. That's why I couldnt attend the course you've registered me into.
You dont know, all because you never come and visit me. You dont know details of my life. So you dont have any right to get angry.
Ever since I was a teen around 14, I no longer regard you as a father.
Secondly, STOP having such anger issues. Seriously. It's like fucking annoying. When I use "fking", it means it's goddamn ANNOYING. Stop misunderstanding people and being so angry with everyone. Maybe F&B isn't for you. In order to survive in F&B, you have to not take things too personally.
And Aunty Irene, Kathy, Me, Sara are completely fine.
Yes? So now I'm involved cos I told you something you didnt want to hear. Plain incompetent, Violent and dangerous. Shit you.
.
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Man, i cant seem to erase this two shit man outta my brain. When i wake up also is these two man.
I want to be happy and free again.
If I cant be who I was before, I will be who I am now.
But the desire still stays.
I want to meet: Huichin and Zihan
Vina
Fatin and Gloria
Charis
Esther
Pindong ASAP ! Miss all of you all. :)
So sorry I've been so busy, esp. to Vina who has been asking me out sometimes.
Cos the big boss is in phillipines, the Subway store short of manpower and hence I need to work 6 days per week, sometimes 11 hours at one go ! So yeah. Hope you all will understand. ;)
Tired bones oh tired bones.
I've been dreaming adventure dreams recently. E.g: Going overseas with people chasing us and we giggle and run. Hahahahha. And I'll remember 3-4 dreams when I wake up.
Today my grannie bought for me my fav sliced fish ban mian <3
I still havent gotten my iPod touch yet ):
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