Life has been treating me better these days :)
Depression fading away, happiness starting to reside in my heart.

All of a sudden, I got so much things to do.
And all of a sudden, I feel overwhelmed. I dont know whether is a good or bad thing. But oh well :)

Mum says that friends do not care MUCH whether you are fat or thin, stupid or smart, if they want to be with you, it's because of who you are, it's because of your personality.
I used to think that I needed to please others just to get friends, after the traumatising incident in sec 2 :/
So slowly but surely, I'm adopting a new mentality. A mentality that will hopefully allow me to trust others better, and enjoy life more. A new mentality that all you have to do is just to put yourself out there, take a deep breath and a risk, and there will always be people who take you as you are and love being around you.

So anyway, this is my schedule:
30/03(Wed): Meet Fatin and Gloria
31/03(Thur): Meet customer to trim laptop skin.
01/04(Fri): Go church with Mercy. Shopping with Charis.
02/04(Sat): Meet 3 customers. Go out with my happy pill.
03/04(Sun): Go out with my happy pill again.
04/04(Mon):
05/04(Tue):
06/04(Wed):
07/04(Thu): Start Subway job

Not alot, but keeps my mind off things.

Lastly, I love some special people <3

Bitter or better?

Mum talked to me today. And it made me question myself, "When was the last time I actually gave whole heartedly to a friend?"

I really want to be a good friend, a good person, to be all the best I can be.
And I guess it's a good start.

I know I cant continue living like this.
Feeding on other people's opinions of me, and not living life to the fullest.

So I've decided that, whatever you think about me, I shan't really care anymore :)
Instead, I'm just going to live my own life and improve myself.

So that's all I can say.

Mum's back from Europe! Whoohoooos.

And yesterday was Nee Soon bazaar. Made some aunty friends there and got free gifts, e.g: cooking oil. I realised I click very well with aunties, ever since I was young.

Tired now. I really want to lose weight ):

And SUCKS. My view count of my blog keep on dropping. Who still views my blog, anyone? :)

Chillchill I'm your happy pill ! ♥

"Quirkiness gives people character and charisma. I don’t think it’s beautiful when everyone starts looking like a Barbie doll. I’m a lover of natural individuality."
- pineappleupsidedown.tumblr.com

So, does it mean I have to give up my barbie doll dreams? :/
How do you be comfortable in your own skin?

Anyway, yesterday was lovely. I used to think that being alone was lonely, but now I dont find it anymore.

-Bought groceries
-Met customer
-Went to hunt for F&B jobs
-Went to Bugis to see my earpiece supplier
-Walked around Bugis
-Chatted with a lot of nice online friends :)
-Slept a good sleep

I also managed to find a job at Subway!
Hahhas. I a bit shy to tell you the branch :P
I will be starting work on April Fools, 1st April 2010. Sians, very auspicious date uh.
I went to Swensons, Yoshinoya, Fish n Co, Haagen Daas, Golden Village, Ajisen Ramen  for an interview.

Subway is $5/hour, but the people there are very friendly :)

Yoshinoya is like $3.50/hour -.- HELLO, $3.50, so underpaid mans.

Haagen Daas $5/hour, Golden Village $4.50/hour, but all not employing.

Swensons it's $4.50/hour, there are many people there so more potential friends, but the lady boss too pushy then when I say I going to source around for other jobs before making a decision, she desperately says that I am fickleminded, probably in an attempt to keep me at Swensons cos alot of poly peeps need to go back and shortage of manpower.
But please, it's NOT called fickle minded, it's called decisive and smart. Of course I cant settle on your job so fast, I need to see which one the best for me rights -.- And and, dont label people or say people fickleminded, when the truth is it's NOT and the reason underlying why you insult people it's because you want to get people to STICK WITH YOU. =.=
But other than the lady boss everything is okay luhs. I dont feel a chemistry with the people there though.

Fish n Co $5.50/hour got a super cold and realistic boss, I dont really like.

Ajisen Ramen is $5.50/hour, and the lady boss even more colder than the Fish n Co one. Siao, so cold for what, already got airconditioning.

I guess through this I found out more about myself lor.... For me, my boss is very important. I used to work in Gelare and my boss keep on shouting and vent anger on me, but cos I am the employee I have to take everything and dont retaliate back. But I also not much productivity.
At Goodybooks, cos LKH was super nice to me that's why I was willing to work so hard for him, even though pay only $4.50/hour ! 8-D

Bosses are indeed very important for an employee's productivity. :)

Okies, I going GYM, meeting customers, and stuff :D Whoooopheeeeee.

I've always been a kid at heart, as what they always say.
But I'm also an Ah Soh at heart. :D

Why? Cos I love groceries, I love bargaining... and the list goes on :)

Today is mummy's payday, and as she is overseas she tell me to draw pocket money for myself.

Look at what I bought:

Sheng Shiong VS Fairprice:

I still prefer fairprice, as I feel that it is more cleaner. So I dont mind paying a little more for my groceries (:
ShengShiong has this strong fish smell that I dont like.

However, if there is recession, I guess Sheng Shiong would rise.


List of Groceries:

Chesdale Cheese (Trim) x 2
Fairprice Shrimp Wonton (12 pcs) x 1
Isojoy Beancurd (Mango) x 1
Isojoy Beancurd (Almond) x 1
Vitasoy (Chocolate, pack of 6) x 1
Ayam Brand Baked Beans x 1
Mi Goreng Instant Noodles (Spicy) x 1
Mi Goreng Instant Noodles (Extra Soy Sauce) x 1
Dodo Seafood Stick (250g) x 1
Milo (Healthier Choice) x 1
Tae Kae Noi Grilled Seaweed (Kimchi) x 3
Nestle Cheerios x 1
FairPrice Chinese Chives Dumpling x 1

ALL FOR BELOW $50 ^^

I think it should have no problem lasting me for 1 month, for my snacks and lunches, and also to satisfy my mouth itching tendencies.
Super happy. Hehs. Shopping is indeed a way to any girls (or Ah Soh's) heart :D

Mummy, I really need you right now. I'm so lost.

Thanks for cheering me up :)
I was pretty down today actually.
So awesome that there is so many things in common.
October 24 ; October 25
INFP ; INFP
Scorpio ; Scorpio
Coolness! 8-)

And OMG. I just found out the song title that is ringing in my head since O levels!
It's called Forever by Chris Brown.
RAWKSRAWKS! But after a while, get a bit tired liao.

I ate Soyabean with You Tiao today. I left the coffee shop with a super round tummy 8-)

And before that, I LOVE SEAWEED!
Especially Grilled seaweed (Tae Kae Noi) ^^

5 day plan starts tommorow! :D

It has been long since I've done something constructive.
Better make myself useful, instead of being a bum all DAY long. :/

Once TheDigitalBee stabilises, I should go work part time, and preferrably get to know more friends. :(

D.I.E VCD <33