Anyway, back to the topic today. 2011's ending.
I developed new hobbies/skills:
➩ Travelling: I visited three countries , China, Vietnam and Bintan. Especially for China and Vietnam, I have never imagined myself to have visited there. I never really lusted to wander and travel around the world before 2011.
➩ Swapping(Barter Trade): I learnt how to swap items from blogshops! And it was hell of a ride, in a good way. From Marc Jacobs handbags to different bracelets, I've met nice blogshop owners and am thankful for that :)
➩ Artsy side of me - Unlocked: Increasingly I have gotten more fond of DIY-ing stuff, like handmaking rings, paper wallets, etc.
➩ Makeup: Have also become increasingly interested in makeup in the year 2011- But until I find a way not to get breakouts from putting on makeup, I'll reserve it for special occasions.
➩ More cooking
➩ Step Aerobics: Learnt step aerobics from NP Aerobics Club
I tried many new stuffs:
➩ Tasty Zha Jiang Mian <3 @ China
➩ Bunking in with a friend for one whole month @ China
➩ Washing laundry in a bathtub and stomping on it like that in olden time dramas when that was how daughters/young housewives would wash their laundry @ China
➩ Being away from Nerdy for 1 whole month @ China
➩ Clubbing with secondary school clique. Yes I've clubbed before. Only once okay? @ St James Power Station
➩ Signed up for cca FINALLY at school, Leo Club. Got a little bit more involved at one point of time.
➩ Laughing so much, UNCONTROLLABLY, for long periods of time over stretches of many days. Have never been like this before. O: @ Everywhere
➩ Discovered Eric Khoo's brilliant local movies.
➩ Started using Twitter ? Hahaha.
➩ Drawing on my exam script a flower and a bee, and even an inspirational quote. LOL
@ Exam Paper
➩ (Going to) Be on camera for the first time @ Maangchi filming
➩ Taught a whole class of primary school students english @ Vietnam
➩ Plucked out weeds and got 5 splinters as a result @ Vietnam
➩ Did construction work for the first time(mixing of cement, carrying heavy piles of mud, painting walls with paintbrushes, etc). @ Vietnam
➩ Archery @ Bintan
➩ Air Rifle @ Bintan
➩ Dune Buggy @ Bintan
It was a hell of a bumpy road for me:
I do admit that I did have fun in Year 2011. Alot of fun and adventure in fact.
But like everyone does in certain points of their lives, I've experienced many bumpy roads and setbacks in 2011. :(
I dont want to make a list, for this section, as one should count blessings rather than problems or issues.
Recalling back and comparing it to the current state I am in now, I'm better.
Back then, I felt so overloaded with worries, I had the feeling that everything was just a dream and I wished I could wake up from it soon. Everything seemed so chaotic, so out of place. I felt unwanted, unloved, and that I didnt belong. All I thought about was that I had to survive this, and everything would be okay. I just needed to be patient, to wait.
While waiting for that day of peace to come, I blocked out all emotions and built walls around me. I became cold, to myself and to people. People still continued to disappoint and hurt me. I disappoint me. I built the walls even higher to shield myself from more pain.
But I couldnt be cold forever. I wasnt alone forever. I couldnt block out all my emotions forever.
A mere hug from Kennedy would bring me uncontrollable tears, without any rhyme or reason. Tears just flood.
I've simply been keeping too much pain inside.
Months later..
(Okay I sound like I'm writing a fictional story but whatever).
The day of peace didn't come. Rather, it was a process of constant renewal and healing. Simple things like a good meal, a nice song, or a good laugh would make my day. :)
And soon after circumstances started to change. I had to rebuild myself once more.
Through scrapped knees, I learn.
What I personally want out of 2012:
➩ Building up healthy habits in terms of my studies and my diet
➩ Trying out recipes when time permits
➩ Stability and Healthy Expectations.
With that, I end with a few quotes ^-^v
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
~ Howard Thurman
“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
~ Morrie Schwartz
2012,
you could choose whether you want to be challenging or easy on me.
Cos I'm just going to build me up and aint gonna worry no more. <3
P/S: Just dont let the world end, okay? (:
I developed new hobbies/skills:
➩ Travelling: I visited three countries , China, Vietnam and Bintan. Especially for China and Vietnam, I have never imagined myself to have visited there. I never really lusted to wander and travel around the world before 2011.
➩ Swapping(Barter Trade): I learnt how to swap items from blogshops! And it was hell of a ride, in a good way. From Marc Jacobs handbags to different bracelets, I've met nice blogshop owners and am thankful for that :)
➩ Artsy side of me - Unlocked: Increasingly I have gotten more fond of DIY-ing stuff, like handmaking rings, paper wallets, etc.
➩ Makeup: Have also become increasingly interested in makeup in the year 2011- But until I find a way not to get breakouts from putting on makeup, I'll reserve it for special occasions.
➩ More cooking
➩ Step Aerobics: Learnt step aerobics from NP Aerobics Club
I tried many new stuffs:
➩ Tasty Zha Jiang Mian <3 @ China
➩ Bunking in with a friend for one whole month @ China
➩ Washing laundry in a bathtub and stomping on it like that in olden time dramas when that was how daughters/young housewives would wash their laundry @ China
➩ Being away from Nerdy for 1 whole month @ China
➩ Clubbing with secondary school clique. Yes I've clubbed before. Only once okay? @ St James Power Station
➩ Signed up for cca FINALLY at school, Leo Club. Got a little bit more involved at one point of time.
➩ Laughing so much, UNCONTROLLABLY, for long periods of time over stretches of many days. Have never been like this before. O: @ Everywhere
➩ Discovered Eric Khoo's brilliant local movies.
➩ Started using Twitter ? Hahaha.
➩ Drawing on my exam script a flower and a bee, and even an inspirational quote. LOL
@ Exam Paper
➩ (Going to) Be on camera for the first time @ Maangchi filming
➩ Taught a whole class of primary school students english @ Vietnam
➩ Plucked out weeds and got 5 splinters as a result @ Vietnam
➩ Did construction work for the first time(mixing of cement, carrying heavy piles of mud, painting walls with paintbrushes, etc). @ Vietnam
➩ Archery @ Bintan
➩ Air Rifle @ Bintan
➩ Dune Buggy @ Bintan
It was a hell of a bumpy road for me:
I do admit that I did have fun in Year 2011. Alot of fun and adventure in fact.
But like everyone does in certain points of their lives, I've experienced many bumpy roads and setbacks in 2011. :(
I dont want to make a list, for this section, as one should count blessings rather than problems or issues.
Recalling back and comparing it to the current state I am in now, I'm better.
Back then, I felt so overloaded with worries, I had the feeling that everything was just a dream and I wished I could wake up from it soon. Everything seemed so chaotic, so out of place. I felt unwanted, unloved, and that I didnt belong. All I thought about was that I had to survive this, and everything would be okay. I just needed to be patient, to wait.
While waiting for that day of peace to come, I blocked out all emotions and built walls around me. I became cold, to myself and to people. People still continued to disappoint and hurt me. I disappoint me. I built the walls even higher to shield myself from more pain.
But I couldnt be cold forever. I wasnt alone forever. I couldnt block out all my emotions forever.
A mere hug from Kennedy would bring me uncontrollable tears, without any rhyme or reason. Tears just flood.
I've simply been keeping too much pain inside.
Months later..
(Okay I sound like I'm writing a fictional story but whatever).
The day of peace didn't come. Rather, it was a process of constant renewal and healing. Simple things like a good meal, a nice song, or a good laugh would make my day. :)
And soon after circumstances started to change. I had to rebuild myself once more.
Through scrapped knees, I learn.
What I personally want out of 2012:
➩ Building up healthy habits in terms of my studies and my diet
➩ Trying out recipes when time permits
➩ Stability and Healthy Expectations.
With that, I end with a few quotes ^-^v
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
~ Howard Thurman
“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
~ Morrie Schwartz
2012,
you could choose whether you want to be challenging or easy on me.
Cos I'm just going to build me up and aint gonna worry no more. <3
P/S: Just dont let the world end, okay? (:
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