Clarifications

At home nowwwwww.

Closed my TheDigitalBee shop to have a breath of fresh air. Will be bringing in new goods through this period, and take time to just relax. :D

Failed my diet yesterday :(
Feel dieting so meaningless and tedious. Hais.
No matter how much KG i lose the fats will still knock at my door in the end.
Can fats just byebye ? Pleaseeeeeee. :(

"It is better to be hated and be yourself, then to be loved and be someone else".

I have a reason for not changing my stubbornness, for not changing myself just because of people's comments.
Sometimes friends give advice on how I should live my life. A part of me appreciates them that they care. At the same time, a part of me still wants to be the person I am.

I'm shooting at no particular friend, but just that since I'm going through a difficult time now, and a handful of friends have been giving me advice. Thank you for still taking time to give me advice, I really appreciate it.

However, I will only change myself if i feel a DEEP conviction in my heart. Yes, if I feel this DEEP DEEP conviction in my heart to change. Also, if I feel it is logical to do so.

For example, person A tell me to change my stubbornness. "Dont be so stubborn la".
Then I will take time to question myself, "Am I really stubborn"?
For this instance, yes I agree that I'm stubborn.
The next step is to contemplate whether to change or not.
But then again, stubbornness can be both GOOD and BAD. Hence, I will call it a neutral characteristic. And since it is a characteristic that will benefit me as well, I am NOT changing, cos changing makes no sense.

So that is ME.

Nowadays, I get many glances and weird stares from people, judging penetrating eyes. For me, with the thin skin that I have, I naturally feel very very very hurt and I hated myself for writing OPEN bullshit in my previous blog and being so free to sabotage myself............but later when I think back, there are still friends which stick by me even though they know who i TRULY am. Thank you for that. :)

So I let this be an opportunity to know who is with me, and who isnt.
Also, I am those kind of people who DONT like to hide.

But anyway, I dont mind being hated or despised for writing what I feel at that point of time, aka banananscenteddiary.onsugar.com :)

So what if I'm fat, unpersevering and horny? I dont really care.

I'M JUST TRYING TO LIVE MY LIFE.