I’m typing in my school’s internet café, so I’m typing this in font 7 so that people wont be able to peep :P
Anyhow, pardon me for the lack of updates. So the truth is, have been real hesitant about blogging here. Furthermore, having a twitter account allows me to sort of "blog" whenever I want, whereever I want. You see, thus are the reasons for the lack of a proper update in such a long time (or at least it feels like).
Now diary, oh diary. Where do I start?
Sometimes in my life, circumstances can be really overwhelming. People grow apart, such as friends, and time and distance plays such a critical role.
Recently I've met with many disappointments, many negative feelings and thoughts.
Have you ever been in a situation where people say you cannot do it? Well, that doesn’t really affect you if you're sure of yourself, if you know who you are. If you have things going for you. What people say are not true. But what happens if you're going through an identity crisis - trying to find yourself?
But what if, you are going through a rough time? What if you're trying to juggle many things in your life at one go, yet all they are doing is putting you down and not being accepting towards you?
What if the anger you feel towards people who have done wrong towards you could get so overwhelming? Their lack of respect for you drives you to the wall? Misunderstood and unappreciated.
Forgiveness? What is this?
Perhaps it would be better if you thought of the people whom you did wrong to in the past, and that some of them were magnanimous enough to forgive you with open arms :) Perhaps that's where you will draw strength and generousity to forgive those who have wronged you too.
Emotions, they're hard to handle sometimes, arent they?
I've been thinking about certain things for a very long time, but as of yet, I havent found a breakthrough. I will keep pressing on, keep staying strong, taking a break if I might, to find the answer.
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I feel better typing this down. :)
Sorry for my emo post, this are just thoughts that I've been wanting to get out of my system for a very long time.
I'll just end here. I promise, I will be okay soon. )
Love.