Recently, I've been having bad dreams consecutively such as me being in a class presentation and suddenly run out, Kennedy and me breaking up, etc. Wake up feeling sad and sorry for myself. :(
I've also been having palpitations every time I think about school. How I am supposed to cope there, would I quit again, etc.
Sometimes I have insecure feelings from our relationship. I'm never afraid that you will cheat on me, or I will cheat on you, all because of the fact that I'm confident that we're loyal. I'm just afraid that you'll grow tired of me, that you'll be too busy, or in this case that I'll be too busy when I go back to school.
I'm afraid of the heartbreak of growing apart, of breaking each other's hearts.
But then again, I try to find comfort in this statements:
"Who will know what will happen in future? You cant control the future, just try to control the present and live life to the fullest."
"Getting your heartbroken means you've tried"
I've also tried joining "venture" with my ma to try to renovate our room. In case you're wondering, we're going to insert a study table(L-shaped), paint our room, and place a sliding wardrobe! =)
I'm really excited and hyped up about the project. Hopefully everything can go well as planned and I will be more ready for school! =)
Hopefully my anxiety will lessen, and may God bless me.