NOT ABOUT Nerdy
Close friends, feel free to ask what I'm talking about here :) I need a listening ear too:
Defensive talk and all. Disagreements always. I'm really tired. I've tried. To be a friend, a sincere friend. To understand you all better, and try to appreciate you all. I've tried to accommodate. But why does things look so bleak, even though I've tried so hard? Is it because trying hard is wrong? Would not trying at all be more effective?
I'm sorry that my judgement of you has been clouded by my personal experiences. But I really do hope that you try to change. I'm going to say this one last time, and the very very last. Because nothing can make you change except yourself. I've gotta understand that. I cant change you. Change to become more mature, and be RESPONSIBLE for once.
On my part, I have also done wrong, IN THE PAST. What to do, I was faced with a tough situation back then.
So with my ever existent-when-with-you defence mechanisms raised up high, all I can do to cope with it is to be cold and to build up walls around myself. I'm going to be as cold as ice, not moving an inch.
Look on the bright side Hannah, things are going to change SOOON ^^