Have you ever laid in bed, and many thoughts come to your mind?
And then when you're finally conscious of what you're thinking, you lose your train of thought and cant seem to think anymore?
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All of a sudden I feel really empty :(
And I hope that these bad feelings wont last.
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Why do similar people with depression quit school?
I may know about myself, but I just want to understand the whole situation. Why? WHY???
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Doctor says that once you leave school for so long(9months), you'll find it very hard to get back. Mum, I'm just very scared. I'm really am. That's why I'm acting like I dont care about this situation, but in fact I'm horrified. How do I see my year 2 friends which were once my classmates? How do I act normally around them? Even if leaving school was a big mistake, how do I forgive myself totally?
How do you settle for imperfection?
I just need more strength, to go through this.
I want my questions answered, and hopefully I will find that it will just like always :)
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I wanna fill my heart with lots of love.
You may have a lot of love around you, but only you have the key to fill your heart up with love.
Maybe I should try closing my eyes and think about happy things. Then all the love will flood in.
Or alternatively, I should lower my expectations, cos then I will get very happy with the slightest things and not get disappointed cos my expectations are not met. Maybe.
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Some day I'm going to spread my wings and fly.
I'll give out so much love cos I cant contain it inside anymore. Someday.