By boredom, impatience, different opinions, possessiveness.
It used to be a peaceful and loving relationship, from my memory.
You used to be so talkative, and I would just be amazed at how much general knowledge you know. I would just sit and listen to you, in amazement. At the earlier stages you made me feel that I was the happiest and the prettiest girl alive.
Then things started getting hectic. We saw each other less and less and it made me feel lonely. I was going through alot, especially mid 2011 and circumstances on my side didnt help. I felt it quite a chore to juggle cca, school, friends, and him. Thinking back, I was constantly giving myself unnecessary stress, that could be managed better if I ever met such a circumstance in future. I kept all my emotions to myself.
Then when I was finally sober, I realised how much things I have kept to myself. I realised how tall the walls are built between my heart and others. I dont believe in blaming myself for these walls though - But I do believe in letting things go, in slowly but surely forgetting everything.
We've become more possessive. BOTH of us.
I started feeling taken for granted, for the things that I've done. The more I reflected, the more I found this issue reciprocal. I also sometimes, am guilty of taking him for granted.
Fix it?
I'm really tired. I need to fix me first.
A song, for anyone who is so tired of coping with everyday life.
And just wants someone to help lift all their burdens :)