It feels long at least.
So we shall have a little Q&A, shall we?
How's life been for you?
Life has been boring and routine-ish, as well as fufilling.
I really love my life right now, despite it being boring sometimes. Because I am surrounded with people I love, I have more positive feelings that usual, hence depression starts to fade away.
No doubt life is not perfect, but at least everyday when I wake up there is always something to look forward to :)
Why do you quit school and hate school?
Many people would ask...
Well, it's a tough question to answer.
To put it simply, I am afraid of judgement - from both people and results. Also, I have a family history of anxiety and depression problems.
I get panic attacks when I study. And I have OCD which makes me a perfectionist and I cannot do without my work being perfect if not I will feel that the world is falling down. Reality is always making fun of me. :(
No doubt I have all these kinda things, I'm definitely NOT gonna blame anyone.
How long will I take to complete my studies I seriously dunno, but what I can reassure myself is that, ONE DAY, I'm gonna complete my uni by hook or by crook :D
How's your relationship with Kennedy?
I know many people are skeptical of my relationship with Nerdy secretly, E.G: SOME PEOPLE(who know who they are and I know who also), cos we know each other through online.
Boyfriend has been awesome to me (:
I'm trying to balance his time and my time so that both of us got time to breathe.
No matter how much I miss him and want to see him everyday, I must try to be an understanding person and not be too controlling of his time.
How's your relationship with your mum?
Me and my mum has been tough. :(
No doubt both of us love each other, I need alot of space and staying at the same room is totally NOT helping. Also, we're having communication problems at the moment, which I dont know why. Just cant communicate. So yup.
How's your relationship with God?
Not very good. :(
Not going to church at the moment.
But nevertheless, I think deep down inside I do believe that God exists.
What are your dreams?
Very interesting question I must say. The problem is I cant answer, as me being a dreamer(INFP), I have many dreams! Haha.
Well, at least I will tell you some of my dreams that I have :)
Come on, let's go!
BIG BIG DREAM.
I want to own a big business, selling things I am passionate about and makes the world a better place. e.g: food industry etc. I want to wear a professional jacket to work, driving a red car. I want to manage others and be a nice boss. A boss which not everyone may like, but a boss which has integrity and treats people with respect. I want to have a nice cosy house which has lots of healthy and nice food in the fridge. My kitchen will be very big. I will have a nice husband who loves me forever and 2 kids(1 boy and 1 girl). I will have 2 guinea pigs and 1 dog. I will also have a maid who will do housework and clean and cook. I will bake and cook on weekends. I will do voluntary work from time to time and bless the community with a portion of my income.
REALISTIC DREAM.
If I am unable to own a big business or a big house, I'm still not sad :)
Simple life is always appealing too.
$3000 and up per month so that I wont have financial problems in future :)
Simple job with nice and warm colleagues. Work must be fufilling and must help others in one way or another.
Same goes, 1 husband(DUHH) 2 kids, family outings, etc etc.
Know that you will highlight this.
I love you! :)